A week from Thursday I will be moving out of my dorm and heading home. I'm not sure how to feel. I'm really excited, but also sad about leaving all these people here at Northwestern that I have grown so close to. Of course, it will be really stressful with so much to do in so little time. I have been constantly reminding myself not to worry. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. - Matthew 6:34 I have noticed that a lot of people are worrying way too much during this time. I'm guilty of it too. Every time that I worry about something and it passes, I wonder why I made it out to be such a big deal. It will especially be hard to be intentional about spending time with people. It will be hard leaving here. Especially since my roommates Terra, Christine and I will not all be roommates together next year (terra and I are still rooming together.) We have only a week and a half left of living with each other. I have grown to love and care for both of these girls throughout this school year.
The Lord has been so good to me. He has led me to South Carolina this summer to strengthen my relationship with Him. I will be going with around 100ish students from a ministry called Campus Outreach. The Summer Training Project is designed to help students grow in their walk with God. I will be working a full time job while at project, along with Bible studies, evangelism training, ministry training, and different types of activities during the week. I'm am super excited, but also nervous with what God will be revealing to me there. It will be hard being away from home for two months, but I know that the Lord has led me there and that His will is so much better than what I have in mind for my life.
This year I have learned much about myself. The Lord has convicted me with how selfish I really am. It has been hard to recognize this, but also great that because I see this in my life, I can work on being less selfish. It has definitely been a great experience noticing this in my life and being able to share it with other people. My roommates see this firsthand. The Lord put's us in these situations to help us grow. The book of James has taught me that my trials give me joy because they will eventually help me to become mature.
Spiritually I have grown a tremendous amount these past few months. The Lord has been revealing himself to me in a whole new way. I think it was around March that my thirst for his word actually started to rise to a whole new level. Since then my relationship with Him has been so sweet! I have learned how to really talk with God on a more personal and intimate level.